Disordered

She thought control would save her. Instead, it became the very thing that consumed her. In Disordered, Eloise plunges readers deep into the fractured psychology of anorexia nervosa—an illness that masquerades as devotion, reshaping the mind until self-destruction epitomises salvation. Told through lyrical prose and piercing honesty, this novel blurs the line between memoir and fiction whilst being entirely true. Guided by Mallory—the personification of the eating disorder itself—Eloise dissected her own descent into obsession, fear and identity loss. Each chapter peels back another layer of the illness, exposing its seductive cruelty and the impossible task of recovery when the enemy sounds like your own voice. At once brutal and beautiful, Disordered is not just a story of illness but of survival. It is for those who have lived in silence, those who have loved someone disappearing before their eyes, and those still fighting to be heard. Because sometimes, the most dangerous love story is the one you have with yourself.